something's changed

something's changed, in my health, my situation, and in my heart, since my last post.

yeah, i've not been posting here too much, i think i've been .... pondering.... lots. a quiet time.

my health: i'm reacting less to things. i seem to be able to handle scents and chemicals better than before. there may be some healing happening here! i was able to wash my hands in a friend's handsoap, and then sniff and sniff at the deliscious scent on my hands... without having an asthma attack. my lip got a bit itchy, but it didn't seem to bug my breathing. but... i have had to use my puffer some sundays, just cuz there are soooo many freshly washed and scented bodies in the room! lol

my situation: my house is getting reaaaalllyyy musty this fall. and i'm going to not rush out and move until God give the go-ahead. but i can sense it's coming. but it's not going to be homesteading! it's gonna be pulling up some roots, so to speak.... lightening my load, household wise, and just following wherever God leads me. it could be anything and anywhere....

my heart: i'm just going to trust Him. for now, i'm here, and communicating with my neighbours like i never have before. so i'll stay... until God says go! and STAND on that truth that HE is the air i breathe... not oxygen. HE gives me life... not. air. HE is my source, and i'll trust HIM to take care of me, not myself. i don't have to figure out what to do, where to go, He'll lead me. all i have to do is determine to follow HIM. not follow the cleanest air... not follow my nose to a more non-toxic environment.... follow HIM, and Him alone, and He'll take care of me.